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I'm Ruby, I am a screw up. I dissapoint people, even the people that matter the most to me. I am depressed and way more. -I miss you Stef, I dissapointed you and I hate myself for that. I don't ask for forgiveness because I don't deserve it.
I want to die, Stef. You shouldn't have died, you never deserved to get cancer, I however do because I am no good. You however were amazing and always so positive, and then there's stupid me who dissapoints you, and hurts you. I wanted to be in your place but I couldn't, I wanted to save you, make the pain go away, but I couldn't. I no longer think god excist, why would he let someone like you die so young otherwise?-
DAYS WITHOUT CUTTING: 0
DAYS WITHOUT BURNING: 0
DAYS WITHOUT PURGING: 0
AMOUNT OF PAINKILLERS TAKEN: 10
AMOUNT OF OTHER PILLS TAKEN: 0
-last updated on 8th of january 2012-
I'm Ruby, I am a screw up. I dissapoint people, even the people that matter the most to me. I am depressed and way more. -I miss you Stef, I dissapointed you and I hate myself for that. I don't ask for forgiveness because I don't deserve it. I want to die, Stef. You shouldn't have died, you never deserved to get cancer, I however do because I am no good. You however were amazing and always so positive, and then there's stupid me who dissapoints you, and hurts you. I wanted to be in your place but I couldn't, I wanted to save you, make the pain go away, but I couldn't. I no longer think god excist, why would he let someone like you die so young otherwise?-
DAYS WITHOUT CUTTING: 0
DAYS WITHOUT BURNING: 0
DAYS WITHOUT PURGING: 0
AMOUNT OF PAINKILLERS TAKEN: 10
AMOUNT OF OTHER PILLS TAKEN: 0
-last updated on 8th of january 2012-
me:
let me sleep
brain:
lol no, let's stay awake and remember every stupid decision you made in your life
me:
okay
